Faith, Trust, and Letting Go

We all have faith and trust in people. Some people we know, and some we do not. I trust everyday that the guy driving down the interstate pays enough attention to what he is doing that I do not die in a flaming twisted ball of metal on the side of the road. I give this trust with out a second thought, because if I did think about it all the time I would never leave my house. I basically trust my life to complete strangers. So you would think that it would be easy to trust people you know and love. Apparently not! 

This move is into the great unknown for me. The first thing people ask me when they hear that we are moving is "what are you going to do for a job?". "I don't know" I reply. I have faith in my Swedish family that when they say "it is all going to be okay", that it will. But how can they know?

I read a Swedish newspaper written for English speakers called The Local, and they cover many issues involving English speakers moving to Sweden. I find their information informative, and frankly frightening. I read how hard it is to find an apartment (up to 8 years wait in some cases), and the difficulties of finding a job. These are real life people trying to do the same thing that my family is doing. Honestly it scares the crap out of me. 

The beginning of each Skype conversation with my sister-in law in Sweden is overrun with these articles I have read. In her calmest most reassuring voice Miccan (the sister-in law) always tells me " it is going to be okay". The faith and trust in her should come easier than that of the stranger on the interstate, but it doesn't. I have to force myself to believe her. It lasts for a few days or more, and then I come across another article that freaks me out. Another Skype call and another calm down and we go full circle. Meanwhile some where in this cycle, my Swedish family found us an apartment to live in. What? I just read that people were waiting 8 years for apartments, and they found one for us in 8 months! Maybe they are right, maybe it will all be okay. So I have decided that they have earned my faith and trust. They have not once failed to deliver on what they say, they will not set us up to fail.

I am going to believe what they tell me.

I am letting go....